"My heart is dead... I sometimes wonder if I even have a heart... and that I'm not overdoing the "helping others" to atleast think and pretend that I have a heart..."

"My heart aint even that anymore... I just think it shrank so badly when it bled empty, that it got into a hollow vein and found it's way to my @ss and one day... I just pooped it out...."

"My god... that's always my way of telling things hahhaa"

"I always have my funny ways of making heavy subject a little better to talk about, and even laugh about"

"If I ever go into heart surgery, all they'll find when they crack my chest open, is dust and spiderwebs.... and a little bedside picture of "someone", that's stading there as a reminder..."

"Yeah you know, that it's even a little miracle that I'm still "functioning"
Normal people wouldn't even be able to be alive without a heart... But I'm still here,.. typing this to you "

"I think that's quite remarkable "

"You know this is Thriller 2011 version, right?? "

"What you just witnessed was the beginning of a particularly terrifying nightmare... but it isn't... its the beginning....."

WHaaaaaaaahahahahhhahahhhaahha

Great weekend!!

I was at Karin at Friday, slept there. Hahaha went to bed at 4 an stood next to my bed at 9 again. Had a quick breakfast and hopped into the car, back home.

I was going to "de zwarte mark" with my brother and his girl, to shop for new Nike's and new Aussie's. So, they came to pick me up and there we went! hahaha, had some very heavy happenings on the trip, like only 10 km gas left to find a gasstation that was sooooo nerve wracking!!! But we laughed as numbnuts haha!! Great!!

When we got there, first stand; PINK AUSSIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We were so damn excited!!! FINALLY PINK AUSSIES!!!!! So, without thinking, Daisy and me bought ourselves the pink Aussies!! *YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!* and I bought an oldschool back one too, with a band at the sides. AND new Nike's!! OMG they're so cool!!



YEAAAAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I got an ID&T towel YEAHHHHHH!

On the way home, we got the tickets for MOH... MY GOD those things were expensive... 156 eur. for 3 tickets.

Well, the memories will be priceless, and that's all that's matters!!

I can't wait, 2 more weeks...... This is going to be something so precious to me... *sob* hahahah I really need to swallow down my tears........


YEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Masters OF ROZE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Roze KOEKEN Crew!!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.
I hoped you’d see my face & that you’d be reminded,
That for me, it isn’t over.

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said:
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”

Dank je wel Dagmar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Echt super bedankt!!! Mega gaaf, echt!!!


SEE YOU @ MASTERS OF HARDCORE!!!!!!!

Wanneer neuken zien we elkaar weer??




Hahahahaha

In a few hours, a HELLSSSSS weekend is going to find it's start
If you want to join, or think there's something better to do.... just text/call me...


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If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

I could ask myself that question over and over.
What have I done to be treated this way.
Have I ever done you bad?
Did I ever hurt you?
Did I ever made you mad?
I wish you could just tell me,
talk to me about it.
Cause thinking just makes me crazy.
And it just makes me sad.
I wish you could just be my friend.
Just like at the very first day we met...
Tell me, life, what have I ever done you wrong,
for you do know that what you're doing to me is what I deserve.

There’s another world inside of me that you may never see,
There’s secrets in this life I can’t hide.
Well, somewhere in this darkness, there’s a light that I can’t find
Well, maybe its to far away, maybe I’m just blind
Maybe I’m just blind.

So hold me when I’m here,
Right me when I’m wrong,
Hold me when I’m scared,
And love me when I’m gone.

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I’ll never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when I’m here,
Right me when I’m wrong,
Hold me when I’m scared,
You won’t always be there,
So love me when I’m gone.

When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin,
I won’t tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness,
I’m alive but I’m alone,
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.

So hold me when I’m here,
Right me when I’m wrong,
Hold me when I’m scared,
And love me when I’m gone.

Everything I am,
And everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I’ll never let you down,
Even if I could,
Give up everything,
If only for your good,

So hold me when I’m here,
Right me when I’m wrong,
Hold me when I’m scared,
You won’t always be there,
So love me when I’m gone.

I'm afraid I'm starting to feel
What I said I would not do
The last time really hurt me

I'm scared to fall in love
Afraid to love so fast
'Cause every time I fall in love
It seems to never last

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time I see your face
My heart does begins to race every time

One half wants me to go
One half wants me to stay
I just get so all confused

But every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time Ahhh
My heart does begin to race everytime

Every time your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
'Cause every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times