Aanvulling. Wel nice dat hier hetzelfde beschreven wordt als wat ik een paar posts hierboven beschrijf mbt kleuren. Op basis van deze info ben ik wel in phase 2 geweest maar nog nooit in phase 3. Anyway, weet niet of mensen dit al eens gelezen hebben? There you go:
Road Map To The K-hole
If you are ready for a K-hole, and the set and settings are right, it's time for the trip. The best
way to get 'there' is to inject liquid ketamine. Intravenous injections are possible, but they
can be dangerous: one might reach the K-hole before one has the time to get rid of the needle,
and to lie down properly.
Intramuscular injections are a superior method: the effects come slow enough to leave enough
time to get comfortable, and the effects can come on strong.
Since it's pretty hard to find liquid ketamine in original, closed vials, and injecting ketamine
from any other source can be dangerous, my vehicle into the K-hole in insufflation: snorting K.
One does so by filling up a bullit (it's impossible to make and snort a line from a mirror or
something if you have entered the K-hole) and using this device to 'load up'. One starts with
one bump in each nostril, waits for the effects to come up, and then reloads. And again, and
again, until it is totally impossible to move.
It's time to start the voyage ...
Phase 1
At the start of a trip into the K-hole the body starts to feel light, starts to float, as slowly you stop
feeling your surroundings. External sounds disappear, the room around you seems to
disappear. It can feel like you are sinking into the bed.
One experiences a sense of falling. It's not like falling downwards, it's more like moving faster
and faster in a certain direction. What direction that is is not really clear - K does funny things
with time and space.
Maybe it's not falling at all. Maybe the world is moving fast around you. Or maybe not even
moving, it could just be the perspective changing. Like the axes of space and time curling and
resizing in all directions. Whatever is happening, it feels like an roller coaster ride into the brain.
It's hard to say what's happening, as it's a dark world inside. I remember vivid images in a K
hole, but I don't remember any color. It's just different shades of black. The black and white
artwork of the Swiss surrealist HR Giger are the closest thing I know to the visuals that one
'sees' on this trip. This all sounds terrifying, but it's not.
Phase 2
With the outside world gone, it's time for your body. In phase 1 it was a physical you who was
falling, but with the ketamine blocking all senses, even touch, you stop feeling your body. Your
body disappears. The only thing left is the 'me'. Some would call this the 'ego', others may
call it the 'soul'.
Sometimes this can be scary. It's hard to let go of the body, but there's no way to stop this
process: as the ketamine reaches the brain it blocks more and more signals coming from the
body, until none reach your brain.
Some people get an out-of-body experience (OBE). It feels like you are looking at yourself, or
better, your own body. Even on a dance floor you can get this feeling, though often not so
strong. It usually feels like being in a movie, or watching yourself in a movie.
Space and time have now totally collapsed. One moment you feel like you're everywhere, the
next moment you're thinking on an atomic level. The real world has been replaced by a totally
different internal world - I'll call it the quantum universe - that can not be described properly in
our words, and where the rules of physics don't apply.
Phase 3
Phase 3 is where it gets really profound. In phase 2 there's just the 'ego' left. There's just a
body-less 'ego' floating in this unkown quantum universe. When entering phase 3, this
'ego' disappears too!
For some people this is a scary or almost traumatic experience. If it's the first time you reach
this phase it can be hard to let the 'ego' go. It feels like letting go of life itself, like dying.
Many people experience a near death experience (NDE). You can try to fight against this
'ego-loss', but it won't work, the ketamine does its job.
In a more positive view, the step of letting the 'ego' go is described as some sort of re-birth.
Like having to go through a dark tunnel, but finding a light at the end of it. The first time I
reached phase 3 I thought "I think, therefore I am" and got a bit worried when it realised "if
I stop thinking I'll disappear". I managed to let this thought go - actually I didn't have a
choice - and entered 'Heaven'.
With the 'ego' gone the only thing left now is The Conscious. It's not specifically YOUR
conscious, just The Conscious. It lives in the here and now, it can only experience. It's aware
of itself, it's conscious of being conscious. Nothing more.
Since there's no notion of 'me', the question what time and especially space is, is an even
harder one. In phase 2 there was a external space defined by what is not the virtual 'me'. In
phase 3 there is no notion of a 'me', and thus no notion of an external world.
The Conscious is here and now, but it's also everywhere and any time. The conscious can
only feel, experience. Buddhist and other people who meditate often want to reach this feeling,
though they want to do is while fully conscious of the world around them, not just the quantum
world inside the brain. It's the feeling of being free of all thoughts, memories, ideas. A feeling
of JUST experiencing.
If you let yourself go and don't try to stop, this can be an extremely profound feeling. It's this
phase where the conscious can discover the meaning of life. It's like THE answer is just
around some corner of thought, but every time the conscious looks around the corner it has
disappeared behind the next corner. The conscious FEELS the meaning of life, but as soon as
words come up to discribe this feeling, it disappears.
An NDE can change one's idea about death. I feel like death is not me leaving this world we
live in, but the world we live in disappearing. I don't mean that the world and everybody on it
is destroyed or something, it simple means the 'me' or my 'soul' is moving to a totally
different universe, one that can not be described with our words, and one that simply doesn't
have a direct connectuion to outr world. A parallel universe? A different projection of this
universe? Who knows!