salvia divinorum

en een plant is geen slim plan hoe leg ik dat uit, ja is een kamerplantje,
riiggghhhttt jij en planten skippy

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Dit maakt me aan de ene kant zeer benieuwd, maar ook wat huiverig voor salvia. De paar LSd ervaringen die ik nu heb gehad waren extreem vet en relaxt, maar toch niet altijd childsplay..

Het enige wat ik heel erg facinerend vind, is dat het voelt alsof ik ergens zit waar al het denken plaatsvind en wordt geregeld.

Hmm, ok .. yeah I'm still under influences cause I can't seem to get my head straight .. hmm, strange, funny .. Ahwell, I'll try ..

.. been doing Salvia for quite a while, only using dried leaves, which for me seem to be effective quite enough. I've started of with 10x extract and I've been using 20x aswell, but countertollerance let me enjoy just leaves as intents as the heavy extracts did me.

I find every experience very profound, as in; every time I have a wow-feeling; like this time I understood. Like I learned about how it works, because I find the way it works so most ingenius. And every time I try I learn about how it works in my mind, because every time the effect is the same. Which doesn't make it less interesting, because I haven't found out totally, but I feel I've come quite a way .. and I hope just someone can identify with this explanation of the feeling.

I feel like that I, as conscience, get drawn back into "....". Call it my head, call it Salvia-realm, I dunno. I still wonder about the actual placement of extince of this 'state'. It's a distracting place, visually perceivable, but not through eyes, just by sence. It's a beautyfull place, really calm en pretty.

But constantly my mind is busy thinking 'when it will be back', back in the body/head. And everytime it takes a while. While thoughts are slowly passing in my head like: "Hmm, could it be forever? I know I'm in my house .. I know someone is there, but if I stop focussing on that tiny string of thought leading to the 'here and now' .. would I end up staying here forever?" It's not from the start, but after a short while, these thought arise. Too bad perhaps, but on the other side; I don't know if I could take the step of letting it all go, and perhaps stay in my head/Salvia realm forever. Which is quite possible, because it doesn't rely on the existence of time.

In the place .. my head/Slavia realm, I see events that are past and future. I see thoughts that are not yet existing but I see them slowly comming out of this realm (in physical form, like objects/things) and out through some sort of outer shell. Once popped out, they are thought.It's like perhaps I'm inside the engineroom of thought creation. And these thoughts come from a very colourfull, dynamic, visually attractive realm. Inhibbitted by entities who are working to keep this world running. I guess it's lead by the entitie we call Lady Salvia, but I haven't seen her for quite a while, so I couldn't ask.

Ok, so this all sounds very strange, huh. Well, it does to me, well .. to anyone very sober and so .. this experience or explanation for what has been experienced sound ridiculous. And for me, well .. in and hour time or so, I wouldn't understand myself either I suppose, it's fading as a dream-like memory.

But when I'm experiencing I don't feel that I have lost my mind, my ability to think or to reason. No, I even feel very aware and clear. Nevertheless, I fear that I should not take my experience serious in any way. No matter how convincing this feels, I guess I'd be insane to believe that this explanation is the accordance of what happened.

I know Brewmaster will say that Salvia is just a mind-fuck, but I just can't agree with that (no offence). So I wondered if there be anyone who has the same or a likewise interpretation of a good Salvia experience.

Hmmm .. ok, this was quite a strange experience .. erm. Profound as any other, but this time I realised quite a .. revelation.

This reality is in my head.

I was in that other reality, the one I allways enter through Salvia. And every time I do Salvia, the experience isn't that different .. I just grasp more of the concepts I encounter, like the objects I see aswell as the whereabout of the place. Also what my place is there in that world. I am spectating that world at that moment, but the more often I go there the more of a past and existence I'm building in there.

This time I could finally describe things I've experienced and litterally seen also in previous attempts. It's only now that I understood. I saw that world vividly and I saw a slight crack, like a fold. From that point, which was my head, that whole reality was fold out. Or from another point of view (the one I attained that moment) .. THIS reality existed only in my head. This whole reality, with Indiaan sitting at a couch next to me and a PC connected to internet, a house .. this WHOLE reality, was in my head, from that point of view.

Hmm, let me rephrase this for myself. I was in that world, which was folded out of my mind, consisting of a whole lot of things, people/entities (there was a friend I only know in that world) object .. all indescribable because I have only seen them a few times. And in this world was a crack that lead to this reality. And this crack was at the location of my head.

So I litterally went out of my head.

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The strange thing is that, although absurd, this comes to me as totally true. I experienced this, under influence of Salvia, but with a conscience that is as clear as now .. or, over an hour or two, three. My reasoning is being tested perhaps, but I experience this as truth. I'd better not shout this all around, 'cause people may call me totally insane, so I'll keep this to a select group, but hell .. I do have experienced it with a clear mind/reasoning/conscience.

If there is anyone who experiences the like .. do please reply.

Het vreemde is, dat ik me niet kan voorstellen dat ik met Salvia de gedachte echt kan sturen, moet echt toekijken wat me voorgeschoteld wordt. Maar ben benieuwd heb nog maar 4 x gesmoked, dus misschien komt de echte doorbraak nog..

Die tripreport ken ik die je gepasted heb, heb op de 2de pagina (3de post) ook m'n ervaring geschreven.