Where am I?
Can somebody tell me where I am?

What is this world?
Is this the world we're living in?

I don't want to life in this world.
A world of full rules of expectation.

Can somebody see that I'm unhappy?
Can somebody see that I'm screaming for help?

People want you to go to school, choose a study, choose a carreer and expect you to start a family, raise your family and those, those are the things that should make you happy.

For as far as I can see it those things sound horrible to me.

Don't know what to do with my life, don't know what to do to make me happy.

As a child life sounds so easy, you have all your dreams in front of you, all your hopes, life is so clean.
And when you grow up all your dreams faint away. You have to play with other children and then people trying to make you a good person.

Be nice to the world and hope it will be nice to you to.

By the time you grow older you realise the world isn't nice at all. Crushing your dreams and the only thing you can do is giving a scream for help.

Selfish as the world is there is nobody to help you. This is the first kick from society you build a wall to protect you from falling.

WHY DO WE LIFE IN THIS WORLD!
NOBODY'S CARING FOR EACHOTHER!

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SUCH A SELFISH RACE!
IT LOOKS MORE LIKE HELL, WHILE I THOUGHT IT WAS A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN!

I'M TRAPPED, CATCHED
BREAKING OUT, FALLING DOWN
FALLING FALLING FALLING FALLING FALLING FALLING FALLING FALLING DOWN....

There I was lying on the floor and it all felt like a nightmare.
I realised this wasn't the way it should go, but who was there to help me?
Trapped in the visions I'm having about the world I couldn't go out or come in.
I've got to have something. I've got to have something to help me.

Searching and searching and searching and searching I found a green herb. When I searched further I found a round pill. Together with some liquor and a strange powder, the party was complete. I was in another world. Finally I felt free.

This was where I was searching for.
Through all the rapture, I didn't see it coming.
While my mind was in the seventh heaven, I destroit my body.
I didn't see it, I didn't care about it.
I had the best time of my life.
Then there was a short moment of clearance following by complete panic.

WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME?!
WHY DID I NEEDED ALL THESE THINGS!
CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
CRYING OUT LOUD, MY BODY SHAKING
HEARING THAT VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD COMMENDING WHEN I'M GOING TO TAKE IT!

THE WALLS ARE COMING AT ME!
MORE VOICES IN MY HEAD!
DRIVING ME CRAZY I CAN'T GET SOME REST!
NOBODY SAW IT!
NOBODY EXPECTED IT!
MY FRIENDS! MY FAMILY! THEY COULDN'T HELP ME!

RAMBLER ABOUT IN A TRANCE!
LOSING COMPLETE TOUCH WITH THE REAL LIFE
SCREAMING! ASKING! PRAYING!
WHY ME! WHY ME! O GOD PLEASE HELP ME!
A DIZZINESS INSIDE MY HEAD!
TURN TURN AND FALLING DOWN!
WAS I DEAD? WAS I REALLY DEAD?
THEN I WOKE UP IN BED!

What was happening to me?
Scared as a little child I let things come to me.
I've gone insaine because I couldn't chose what to do.

Please don't make me a marionette of society, please don't do that.
But I also couldn't handle the absolute freedom.
Where could I find the balance?

The balance to fulfill the expectations of others and the freedom to protect my own identity.
Life is about balance,
Life is about choices,

Why do some people look so perfect?
While the other always having problems?
Why can't I life a normal life?
Why can't I do it the easy way?
Why am I always taking the rough way?

Though I see calm from the outside, inside I'm screaming.
Nobody can hear me, nobody wants to hear me.

Can you see me?
Do you see the expressions on my face?
Do you see the tears running from my eyes?

Why should I continue to life my life the way I do now?