ZOEEE*

You had to be selfish..

What were you thinking, were was your common sense..

You knew right away from the very first moment you heard, that I had no chance.. That if you kept me, my life would be a hell.
You should have known that he wouldn’t stay, that he won’t take his responsibility and grow up and act like a mature person.. He probably still didn’t, he’s probably still a stupid fuck-up. If you thought that he would stay because of this reason, then you’re just blind..

Then you made the same mistake again, i already feel sorry for the future..

It has been hard ever since I can remember.. never had the chance to be really happy. It was always about the same thing, the one big monster.. In your thoughts you probably think I stole your life, I chased away your luck and ruined everything for you..

But the story is the other way around, I blame myself every day, getting more depressed every day just because you’re so good in making things look like it’s not your fault but everyone else in the world, including me..

Somewhere I feel responsible , just because I knew you would fuckup, and I didn’t do anything..

Enough is enough, I can’t do it anymore, it’s not my fault..
I have to fight for my own happiness, and that is the only thing I’ll fight for from now on..

You had to be selfish back then, I’m being selfish right now..




Neem je leven niet zo serieus.. je overleeft m toch niet!!

en leg je vertrouwen vooral niet te diep bij mensen..
want ze doen alsof ze alles voor je overhebben
maar als ze je moeten laten vallen om er zelf beter van te worden..
DOEN ZE DAT OOK!

(er zijn wel n paar uitzonderingen maar niet echt veel!)