I'm so done with being last choice..
I'm so done with people thinking, that it's okay to leave me to bleed, at all cost.
I'm so done with fake promises people make me.

Why do people always find their way to my heart, without me even knowing it, and breaking it just as fast. It seems that people really enjoy hurting me.

Pushing people away for ages worked better then having the hopes up to become friends anyways.. That keeps the heart save and the wall strong. I'm planning on never letting down the wall around my heart ever again.. But time after time, it seems to be worthwhile to do so. But at the same time, I feel stupid. I'll be mad with myself, for doing something I told myself to never let happen again. But for doing it anyways..

I know I say "A heart that hurts, is a heart that works".. But I rather prefer not to let it get hurt so much...
I'm far too bitter already.. I don't want to become more bitter, then I already am...

Well...

"Friendship is a fairytale. We know it's unreal, but we all like to believe"